ME-ntal!
We have all heard people whine and complain about their childhood or lack-of one. You hear others blame their mistakes on it, never taking ownership for their own choices. Then you hear stories that truly break your heart into and makes you realize that you are truly blessed to have escaped the brutality of someone elses abuse.
I don't know why I am rambling on about this, really. You know I don't delve too deep in private waters, especially on the bloog-ie. But I wonder if I am truly hard-wired for dysfunction?
Years ago I went to counseling and stopped. Then started and stopped....you get the picture. Really I don't think any of them can top a one-on-one relationship with God. The way I see it is if I need help, he is my salvation. Most counselors want to give you a pill to help you through it or give you some mumble-jumble that confuses you more than you already are. I gave up on counseling over 17 years ago. And I turn a deaf ear to people that blame others.
What I am trying to say is....I wonder if true dysfuntion is in the DNA? You know that lack of trust of all human kind. That lack of ability to just smile and be happy. Why does life seem like an uphill battle for some and just WHY am I the way I am? I like fences you know extreme boundaries with everyone. Sometimes I just want to shut the world out and turn off the phone, but does it really make one happy? NO! Little things are HUGE to me. I just plain dont like it.
I could go into my childhood and I can look at some extreme things that happened, BUT does it really matter? It would'nt change anything. I am who I am. But I would like a new improved model. I want an Upgrade!
I don't know why I am rambling on about this, really. You know I don't delve too deep in private waters, especially on the bloog-ie. But I wonder if I am truly hard-wired for dysfunction?
Years ago I went to counseling and stopped. Then started and stopped....you get the picture. Really I don't think any of them can top a one-on-one relationship with God. The way I see it is if I need help, he is my salvation. Most counselors want to give you a pill to help you through it or give you some mumble-jumble that confuses you more than you already are. I gave up on counseling over 17 years ago. And I turn a deaf ear to people that blame others.
What I am trying to say is....I wonder if true dysfuntion is in the DNA? You know that lack of trust of all human kind. That lack of ability to just smile and be happy. Why does life seem like an uphill battle for some and just WHY am I the way I am? I like fences you know extreme boundaries with everyone. Sometimes I just want to shut the world out and turn off the phone, but does it really make one happy? NO! Little things are HUGE to me. I just plain dont like it.
I could go into my childhood and I can look at some extreme things that happened, BUT does it really matter? It would'nt change anything. I am who I am. But I would like a new improved model. I want an Upgrade!
posted by TamWill | 8:04 AM
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